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[03 Oct 2004|12:52pm] im donee..no mor livejournal for me caRii <33 * bLoW mE oNe

[03 Oct 2004|10:31am] [ mood | happy ] i couldnt agree more with allison bout how the weekends are the best and the week sucks lol. im in a muchh muchh happier mood 2nitee because allison jus knos how to make me feel better and shiit...i swear i dont kno what id do w/o her. shes been ther for me from day onee <33 anywhOo... >> FRiDay << last night was actually funn. after school me angelica allison and fusco julian and ashley went to chris' house cus we wanted to drop our bags off so we wouldnt have to carry them wherevaa we wer goin. so we got to chris' and will peter and arturo were already ther. me and allison played some football video game w/ fusco....mann am i badd! lol i kept runnin all ova the place not knowin wer to go..aww allison said she would take me to a football game one day and she gonna teach me all the shiit =) so then frank and matt came. frank got his new car....its really niice. so we hadda get out cus chris' parents were coming so we went to go get food. peter and me were madd at each othaa so i wasnt talkin to him for a lil while but wer good again =) so then me and allison went all ova the place tryin to find cigarettes with the ids we forgot lol..so no luck derr. den jenn came and we all jus sat on some stairs for what seemed like an hr waitin for the okaay to go bak 2 chris'. so we the guys got drinks and den we all went bak 2 chris' for a lil. then fusco frank and chris went to the hookah bar and the rest of us (except jen) went to burger king. me and allison went all the way bak 2 chris' cus she couldnt find her phone...we had the best conversation though..she knows 100% what im feelin now and we relate so fuckinn much. some people jus need to realize that ther decisions do hurt otha people...i guess it jus takes time for some people to realize it tho. uhh then these like 10yr old kids wer tryin to start shiit w/ matt...ova COUPONS! i swear i dunnOo what this world has come to. then we went bak and met up w/ the guys..got out bags and then me angelica will and chris walked to regis. so i said goodbye to them and met up w/ mike..dis kidd greg and.......liz! omg we attacked each othaa wen we saw each otha lol i havnt seen dis grl for 2 YEARS..its amazin how long its been since i saw everyonee..anyways she hasnt really changed that muchh..she said i hadd which i think is tru lol but it wus so weird to see her. so then we took the train togethaa and then mike drovee me home. i got home at like 12 and then jus passed out. but then matt wokee me upp =( lol but is all good cus we talked for a lil while..i lovee dis kidd lol >> SatuRday << went shoppin in the Bronx w/ my ma. I needed jeans and shirts but we dint find anythinnn =( next weekend maybe ill go 2 the palisades instead. Then I likee jus chilled the whole day and then went out las nite. I went ova to my grls house and we jus watched mean girls. I told them somethinn and dyana was like SHOCKED basically same thing as me lol but whaat can u do?! right its life…things change. Ahh mean grls was soo good =) I thought I was the ONLY one who had neva seen it. Last night was a lot of funn…I loveee these grls so much..we could be doinn nothn and have the best time. <33 So my parents are goin like to rockland county so ther not gonna be home for the most of the day. Badd thing is that I gotta get a taxi to ursaline for my SAT crap and backkk…uhhh thank god it’s the last one =). Uhh im maddd lol. Aim has dis thing now wer u can add pics and I jus added like 17 yestaday cus that stupid webshots thing doesn’t work for me anymore so I gave up on dat one. But I went to look @ the pics jus now and its only showinn one..so I guess ill be scanning all the pics again lol. If u wanna see the pics …I have to email them to u thru some link thing cus I dunnOo the actual link yet yay! its jen's bday ~~~ HaPPy BirThDay BaBe!!!! caRii 1 * kiss ♥ * bLoW mE oNe

days are d r i f t i n away [30 Sep 2004|06:20pm] [ mood | lonely ] have you ever felt like you don't belong? this is exactly how i feel right now. im so bad at expressing my feelings and i guess thats why most of the time i just bottle them up and put aside my feelings thinking that eventually they will go away. but the hardest part of all is that they dont go away..they seem to eat me up. i am constantly in bad moods..depressed and shiit. there seems to be no way out and i keep telling myself that in the end everything will be okay but i know it wont. i actually expressed some of my feelings in my english essay as gay as it sounds. loyola just isnt the place for me anymore. i constantly feel like i just shouldnt be there..i wish i could go bak 2yrs and re-decide which hs to go to because alot of the time i didnt make the right decision and i feel so guilty about it. anyways junior yr seems to be going pretty bad for me so far. i have about what seems 3 grls that i talk to and thats it. me and the rest of them have completly d r i f t e d and thats whats hurtin the most....that nothing can be done. its really amazing how can u be tight with some people for a certain amount of time and then outa nower...dont even talk or all u do is say hi. and the worst part is that usually thers drama to blame or somethin but in this case nothing or anyone is to blame. i've been "sick" alot in the last 2 weeks but i think im using that as an excuse of my being so upset. i wishhh i could jus go back in time =(  angelica jenn and allison...i seriously dont kn0w what i'd do without u grls right now..youz are basically what keeps me going thru everyday. i think to myself that ill be fine..i pray that everyday goes by fast becus im jus so sick of puttin on a smile wen so much shiit is goin thru my head caRii   3 * kisses ♥ * bLoW mE oNe

this week is goin by so fast [29 Sep 2004|06:10pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] last entry was badd...so imaa jus make it in w/ dis oneee* lets see... >> monday was the soccer game afta schOol..we lost badd =( but the good side wus dat i was home in 10mins..hott right?..ya thas what i thought lol >> tuesday was jus schOol..nothn special same old shiit everyday..did take the train w/ ashley tho..we should go togethaa more often since wer the cool grls not on volleyball lol >> today wasnt that badd..i had like no classes whichh wus good. me jenn and allison went out for lunch *lunch buddies* <3 ya grls. then i got real sickk and it wus pretty badd..what wuld i do w/o my grls helpin me..? anyways then afta schOol i took the train w/ some of the guys..me and peter are talkin again =) how can we not talk to each othaa? lol <3 u peter! then on the otha train joe sat near me..i havnt talked to dis kidd in sOo long..and wer wus pat? lol what a shockkk haha..o mann dis mornin dis man like jus missed walkin into me but then i tried to avoid him so i completly like fell intOo pat lol..and i <3 how all the guys wer laughinn @ me =( lol. okayy and then afta i got home i got my nail done..yes 1 nail cus i broke it alreadii >>okayy so what am i doing friday...i could go 2 the club maybee w/ jen and whoevaa els or me and noelle talked about somethin els today that ive known about since like mondayy soOo i dunnOo yet. but okay so the regis dance is fri too...im not goin tho..but guess who is?! LIZ...not kotite lol..ahh i actually really wanna c that grl..i havent seen her since 8TH GRADEE...but i dont have her cell so maybe if im uptown and if mike sees her..ill go see dem for a few..aww i miss spps people so muchhh..w/e happened to all of us stayin in touch and shiit..and i keep seein robert across da platform but ive nevaa actualli talked to him or anythin for 2 yrs tOo...haha i memba wen him and me liked each otha and shiit and he asked me out..dunOO what happened der lol...okay i betta stop cus now im thinkin bout how I KNOW that im not gonna be close w/ like anyone in 2yrs at the rate things are going =\ >>i have so much work/tests/quizzes this week..itz so badd =( o well ima start some of it...mwaa caRii * bLoW mE oNe

good weekend =) [26 Sep 2004|10:56pm] [ mood | tired ] wow i jus read allison's journal and her day juss soundedd likes soOoo muchh funn lol...compared to mine atleast. weekend was goOoOD tho =) so ya fridaay i alreadyy wrote about. yesterdaay i went and got my nails done..i got tips but for various reasons im regrettin dem but i <3 them alot so is all goood =) anyways then i think about jus everyone in ther mothaa called my phone yestaday..i swear i dunOO what i do w/o free mins on the weekends...anyways der was like 3 open houses ? ya i dunnOO which one actualli happened but i dint chill w/ loyola people. lmaOo o mann so dennis calls me on private or w/e nd he gives me hints like loyola..gangsta..im a junior. whaat an idiot lol..itz ok i still <3 ya haha. anyways me and dyana went to central ad we wus gonna chill der but den we decided to go 2 the earliaa movie...first daughter. it wus suchh a cutee movie even thOO dyana was a lil mor into somethin els lmaoo. so den i jus went bak 2 der crib...dint do much. i missed dyana & nicolee so muchhh thOo...sometimes i wonda how the f*ck i get thru the yr w/o dese grls. next weekend der gonna go visit christie soO hopefully ill c dem the next week..have funn grls. today i had sat course...1 more week =) i cant take it anymor. then ive been readin beowulf all night...50 pages left hollerr and i still gotta do speech...i was so confused but jenn jus told me so i gotta do that nowww..jusss greaaaaaaat loveee yaz caRii * bLoW mE oNe

[25 Sep 2004|12:19pm] [ mood | happy ] sleepinnn till 12 is AMAZINNN..I <3 IT lol havent done that in so0o long... anywh0 yesterday ~> school was ight..i had a million tests...i knO u all wanna kno how badd i did on poli sci..a fuckin 45 =( lol thats HORRIBLE ..o well i gotta do e.c. and then ill be finee..i hopee haha thenn aftaa schoOl the guys hadd soccer..haha the vann was soo funny goin ther...poor dennis lol. sOo dey won the game and then we came backk to schOol..thanx to all u dat shoved chocolateee down my shiirt and then squashed me undaa the seats..NOT COOL lol...anyways then i dint knOo what i was gonna do..it wus like i could go bak up to mv and chill w/ my grls or w/e or i could stay in the city and have a ride or i could go to the dance..well i decided to go to the dancee cus alot of the grls wer goiin and mel was sick so i jus stayed in the city. i went to michelles and erin was alreadii der and then ali came..*jug yard tradition* lol..i missed michelle..we used to have so many classes togethaa and be lab partners...we used to be so close =( anyway we hadd funn...we talked abOut alot of shiit and cant forget her brother and all the funny shiit he did..o mannn..that kidd is def. gonna be a p-i-m-p lol. so then noeyy came and we all walked to schOol. angelica, jenny, and jen wer der tOo =). the dancee was ight i mean it obv. wasnt the best but the grls hadd funn jus dancinn...then aftaa machir julian and fusco showed uPp. den everyonee left and i drovee noey home. i talked to matt las night =) my best friend of courseee (no sarcasm der matt lol)aww he got into a fight las night =(...anyways soOo if ppl chill 2nitee i may go into the city but first ima see if my grls are doin anythin cus i did say i was gonna chill w/ dem dis weekend if we wer both free sOo ima call dem lataa ight timee to showerrr..im out caRii * bLoW mE oNe

[23 Sep 2004|10:01pm] [ mood | drained ] o man...i still got mor us. studyin to do..start poli sci and memorize ALL 27 amendments or howevaa many der are...english vocab (like 10mor words left) =( lets jus say im not gettin too much sleep tonight anyways im actualli not dat stressed..considerin da amount of work and shiit i got goin on. im in my happy moods againn =) allison helped alot w/ dat and so did jenn of course lol..but allison and me wer in the bathrOom for awhile today durin frees (great placeee...and im not bein sarcastic lol) to talk cus ders like no one in der and its perfect to talk and shiit..we wer both stressed ovaa diff. things but she always knOs how to make everythin betta and i hOpe i helped her atleast. what would i do w/o this grl?..i dun even wanna knOo...anyways lol... my hair is still wet..and i still needa straighten it... umm i dunnOo wtf im doin 2mara night yet..i always plan like las minutee for everythinn but im leanin towards da dance i thinkk..but then again i dunnOo..i keep changin my mind lol. some ppl are goin..not many ..all ik is like jen and angelica f. and den likee travis and his friends..allison and i dunOo who els okaay im juss ramblin on and on...im out mwa caRii * bLoW mE oNe

[22 Sep 2004|05:57pm] [ mood | depressed ] ---->> dis is from the song by Simple Plan<<----- Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don’t belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming .....wow it seems like im going thru so muchh shiit wen im really not. these last few days have jus been horrible..coverin it up w/ a smile and acting as if nothnn is the matta doesnt help at all..today i jus couldnt take it anymor..i was so depressed and shiit. and i never used to get intoOo these moods every month but the las few i have and it sucks soOo much..theres jus nothn i can do =(...next week ill be better i guess. thanks thOo jenn i dunnOo what id do w/o u 2day <33 and it doesnt help wen im stressin ova work and shiit and realizin how muchhh im driftin from ALL my friends basically in schOol...i never talk to anyone anymOr ight fill dis survey thingy out ...i stolee it from nicole and noey's journal...gotta do thers noww =)   { wat do you think about me? } 1.Who are you, what's our relationship?: 2. How and where did we meet?: 3. How long have you known me?: 4. Tell me one good thing about myself?: 5. When you first saw me, what was your impression?: 6. My age: 7. Birthday: 8. My favorite band at the moment: 9. Colour eyes: 10. Have you ever had a crush on me?: 11. What's one of my favorite things to do?: 12. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?: 13. Describe me in 3 words: 14. Name 5 things I love: 15. Do you think I'm good looking?: 16. How would you describe me to someone?: 17. Would you ever date me?: 18. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did: 19: What do you like most about me?: 20: If we could spend a day together, what would we do?: 21: Have we ever gotten in a fight?: 22: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?: 23. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it: 24. What do you think my weakness is?: 25. Do you think I'll get married?: 26. What makes me happy?: 27. What makes me sad?: 28. What reminds you of me?: 29. If you could give me anything, what would it be?: 30. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?: 31. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?: 32. Are you going to put this on your Xanga or Livejournal and see what I say about you?: 33. What song (if any) reminds you of me?: 34. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?: 35. Would you make a move on me?: 36. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?: caRii * bLoW mE oNe

so confused these days... [21 Sep 2004|11:49pm] [ mood | sleepy ] ahh i just finished my autobio shiit..it only took me forevaa to think of something. i like wrote about n.c. 01..i wish i could go back and do it all over again and that may come tru if i go dis summer =)... today wus the first soccer game...o mann wus dat van crowded goin to randalls..i dun get why we dont jus get a bus. it wus GROSS..it wus soo hott and all the guys were sweating..and i had allison and erin on top of me..friday im def. jus gonna sit on some one insteadd. so they won =) and then i dint get home till 8...i hate cominn home and havin to walk up all da hills and shiit and then i hadda make dinner to. <3.... - gotta <3 it wen me and jenn and allison are all in the bathroom bendin ova loOkin like idiots (u hadda be ther) - how i have sOo many frees a day - the talks me and izzy get to have in the morning =) me gettin closer to people </3... feeling soo sick and wanting to throw-up all day not knowing what to believe anymore drifting from nicole and noelle =( school/classes in general ...only 3 more days tills the weekend =) till i get to see my bifferzz haha i just noticed dennis imed me dis.: I 4eVa sTyLin: she from murder muder, vernon ville, she'll clap u, fa sho kill at will.......my new nickanme is ganstaa btw lol ight im out caRii * bLoW mE oNe

[20 Sep 2004|10:15pm] [ mood | sad ] ahhh i REALLY shouldnt be writin in this shiit considerin how muchh work i have to do but ill get my anger out...im so stressed right noww its ridiculous..i dunnOo how people do it..like be stress-free but i def. would <3 to be them right about now. i have so much work these days its ridiculous and i jus cant handle it. i wish i could turn back time and go back to summer because i loved every min of it and i wasnt goin crazzy like i am now....i feel like im driftin away from some people yet gettin so much closa to othas...i dunOo what the hell is goin on anymor.... so school sucked so much today..i still feel like shiit ..but i did get outaa gym cus that + the cramps i dont have got me out lol so das always a pluss.....and loyola is so annoyin when everyone seems to know everything..i swear its so annoyin...thas not even the annoyin part..its the amount of talk ppl gotta do and the comments..and you gotta <3 how my brother finds shiit out to because of someone who doesnt like to keep ther mouth shut. i dunOo i dont know what to believe anymor eitha..like ppl tell me stuff and its funny because like they try to make me think that my friends would actuallii tell them stuff about me or w/e yet im pretty sure its not tru....w/e i dunnOo i just dont seem to deserve to be happy i guess..atleast thats what i feel like sometimes becus i never seem to be in the best moood anymor =( damnnn us hw, italian hw and poli sci studyin to do...im out lovass caRii   * bLoW mE oNe

[19 Sep 2004|12:57am] [ mood | tired ] yah def. dont really write anythin in this shit anymore...i mean why write about schOol..and schOol right? lol so ill just update bout weekends and shiit.... so bear mountain got cancelled friday so i had off...haha i knO u wer all jealous =) anyways the las few days have been funn. friDay~ allison's bday! happy bday babe..so me and allison met up around gc and went and got food..yah i got the most disgustin soup...so much for fOod. so we walked bak to the trains and met up w/ jenny..she liked popped outa nower lol..so we went to travis'..where so many people wer at. it wuss funn.....gotta thank matt for my shirt soakin wet toO lol. so then me and allison took a walk. i dunnOo what it is about this grl...but i seriously am glad i met her. shes ALWAYS been there for me and we can literally talk about everythin and i have very few people in my life right now who i can do that with. she's amazin..she knows how to make me feel betta and all that =)..thanks babe <3..*drunK bitChes fOr life ...riGht?* lol so then i was gonna leave and meet up w/ amanda izzy gabbie and angelica and go to the fordham game but it wus gonna rain and it wus JV so angelica came in instead...we'll go to a varsity game sOon! anyways then we jus went to the park near the river..forgot what its called...then i left real early cus i dint feel well and i still am nOt..but thas why im soo lucky to be a girl right? lol.... satuRday~ i had my ortho app. real early =( but i am happy cus he said one mor long app. sOo im hopin (fingas crossed) dat i get dese damn things off by nov....then i went shoPpin and got allison her bday present =)...then i went to the san generro feast. i picked angelica and gabbie upp and we met up w/ izzy peter matt chris will and his friend and then we all took the train togethaa..the feast wus funn i guess...i yelled @ will which i guess i shouldnt have done but i def. dont regret doin it even if nicole and will are both mad at me because when one of my friends comes screamin and crying to u...u dont jus sit ther. so me and jen yelled..well i think i did more of that...but i did apologize to will so i hope he jus undastands why i did it or w/e. anyways then nicole left us and we all jus chilled or w/e travis eugene angelica and jen left..haha matt's my new best friend..right matt? lol...so then matt and peter left..and we met up w/ dennis and brenden..and then we saw like aj, alex, and ther friends. and then angelica's parents drove me home.. so its like im madd/sadd bout diff. shiit these days and then im good the next ..i guess it will go away as time pasSes..its jus like a *phase* ...damn i needa get some sleep becus i got alotta shiit to do 2mara (2day)... edit:: i also forgot to mention how i find it absolutly (sp?) fuckin hysterical how grls can have control ovaa guys that ther not even with anymOr...and tell people who and who they cant see. i swear to god some people i really cant stand these days..not many people kno what im talkin about but izzy does and i think she feels EXACTLY the same way i do caRii   * bLoW mE oNe

happy bday!! [17 Sep 2004|11:02pm] [ mood | tired ] HaPpy 16th BiRthDAy ALLiSon!! ...i lovee ya soOo muchh grl..thanx for everythinnn <3 ill update lataa...mwaa caRii * bLoW mE oNe

[15 Sep 2004|06:12pm] [ mood | groggy ] ehh i have a soar throat and maybe gettin sOmethin =(..o well i guess medicine is gonna have to do. and ya ive been feelin really like weird the las few days..like not myself and how everythin usually goes..i dunnOo is hard to explain. okaaay so schOol is borinn and i hate it so much and i hate everything. yestaday i had gym and poli sci @ the same time..but ya dint kno dat till i finished runnin ma ass off in gym =( lol...so i hadda get ma schedule changed. afta schOol i went w/ the guys to randalls. it wasnt THAT badd but i think our schOol should mayBe get nets so me and ryan dont gotta runn/walk so far lol. haha o mann so me and ryan were goalies and we were actuallii having a good talk or w/e and all of a sudden i turn around and whose there?..joe! lol..he was all like OH SHIT ISS CAROLINE! and then him and all the rest of them startin talkinnn bout me ..dat wus actualli da first time ive said anythin to joe since like june maybee..anyways den we came bak and i got food and then went home..uhh i hadda walk home i saw sooo many peoples parents it wus so ridiculous. so not muchh is happin these days...kinda wish excitin shiit would happen lol cus everyday seems to be the same thing ovaa and ovaa again.... ight time to do the greaat thing called homework caRii * bLoW mE oNe

[13 Sep 2004|11:34pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] ...i dunnOO the name of that song..some1 post if u kno it cus i really like it so weekend was boring..not that great. maybe next weekend's will be better..allison's bday friday! =) so soccer started today but i dint go cus it wus all the way @ randalls and yaa..lol so tomorrow im goinn i hope atleast erin or allison is goiin..i actuallii miss soccer like its jus funn doin absolutely nothn and it gives me somethinn to do since i dont do any sports in the fall...ya speakin of sports..i broke it to noey today that ive decided im def. not doing bball anymor..i felt badd tellin her cus i'd hate to leave her but i dunOo it kinda jus hit me but like why sit on the bench the whole year and not play wen like even some good playas dont even get to play...its jus cus ders soOo many ppl betta than me on that team. and also im doing drivers ed twice a week startin in oct. so i def. cant even do bball..o well its not like ima miss it anyways...ill jus go watch them play and the guys toO of course. so school isnt as bad as i thought..like im actuallii okay with the amount of hw and my classes..i mean ther is a umm lack of grls in my eng. class but ill deal w/ all the guys. and i cant wait to find out what my poli sci class is gonna be like..jus GREAAT im sure. woww i really should not complain tho cus i have 21 frees includin siesta and lunch..alot mor than any1 i know =) oOo i keep forgettin to post ALL the pics from fi onto my webshots thing..maybe ill do that 2mara night... woww def. TOO much rambling tonight....time for bedd ..HaPpY 19th BiRthDAY StePhaniE!!.. caRii 2 * kisses ♥ * bLoW mE oNe

its time like these that make you live everyday to the fullest... [11 Sep 2004|11:12pm] [ mood | sad ] tonight i decided that i just couldnt hangout w/ ppl or anythin knowin what happened and everything..i was just so depresses the whole day.i just got home from the city. i went on the ferry and the saw the beams from far away and then i went to ground zero. i just couldnt hold in my feelings any longer..i always seem to hide how i really feel but when i looked at ground zero all the things that i had seen on tv 3 years ago just came back to me and i just sat on the sidewalk and just started crying =(. today made me realize that i really cant take life for granted. yesterday we all chilled afta school to like celebrate noey's bday..i gave her the gift too..i hope she liked it =) so we went to the west-side..chilled @ travis'..and den me angelica nicole ashely julian fusco frank giulio and ryan went to eat at some diner. and then we went to the east-side. i shoulda just gone home from the west-side but it dint matter cus it was so early. some people like to put me in bad mOods but nothn is new these days. so i called nicole on the bus and then talked to her las night..i miss my grls so much alreadii! so then i jus came home. today i found out that melanie's grandma died last night. im so sorry mel for ur loss babe..know that im here for you anytime no matter what if u needa talk or cry w/e. rest in peace lola <3 okay ima call noey soon to wish her for her bday! im outtt caRii * bLoW mE oNe

[11 Sep 2004|11:32am] HaPPy BiRthDay NoeY!!!.... thanx for being such a great friend and everything these last two years..i can't imagine not being friends w/ you. i seriously dunnOo what i'd do without u. hOpe u have a gOod bday babe! mwaa - R.I.P. 9-11-01..i can't believe three years have passed already since this tragedy. i woke up only like 20mins ago and im watchin all the names being said..its horrible what happened and i know by the end of the day im going to be in tears. i remember feeling so helpless when we were trying to find the Dennis the day afta and we were calling every hospital to see if he was there and i just felt so helpless =( Dennis we lovee you and will never forget you..your always in our memories <33 caRii * bLoW mE oNe

first day of school... [09 Sep 2004|05:30pm] [ mood | aggravated ] first day of schOol: okay not badd..could have been better? na cus its school lol. so i took the lataa train dis mornin w/ my bro..omg we get ther and as soon as we get outaa the car..all these lil girls SCREAM "william...omg william" lol i wus like ummm okay..i saw schilling said hi to him..saw krystian he dont say hi to me anymor he jus says hi to my bro..and mike i saw too but he took the reg. train. i also saw laryssa get on at fleetwood so maybe she moved to mv i dunOo. anyways we finally got to schOol..ahh i ATTACKED allison..ahh i missed her so much she was tellin me bout italy and shiit ..what a badd grl u wer ;) lol then i saww angelica and all the guys too..and then everyone els came lataa. all the frosh are lil but ders some taller than me too lol..i dunnOo any except cory..he was like "i know u" i was like yepp lol. so orientation was a complete waste of time!..we had mentor for so longg ..my mentor isnt that greaat..me and ashley are the only grls =( but im gladd shes in mine cus i've neva had the chance to talk to her or anythin so maybe we'll get closa in our funn mentor group we got =) and i saw tram too wen i went to the "bathroom" in mentor lol..oOo italian is gonna be funn this yr! afta school we went to eat and walked around den bak 2 nicoles and i came home denn... i hatee how the lilest things get me in the worst of moods..uhh i cant take it anymor..i have to move out of my house or somethinn (ya right) but im not even kidden anymor..my parents are drivin me crazy and i dont do anythin wrong at all..maybe schOol will be good for me..u kno time away from the fam or w/e. this is why im seriously thinking bout leavin for college and goin far awaaay. uhh im soo madd right now so enough.. caRii * bLoW mE oNe

last day [08 Sep 2004|05:27pm] [ mood | okay ] ahhh so bored right now and mad still too...i went into the city to get my schedule changed but no such luckk..the new lady in for like ms. mcabe i guess is real niice so i like her alot bettaa..dint really see any1 els..saw sean of course and amanda tOo for like 2 secs. so then i had an hr to kill and dint wanna walk around on 86th in the rain..so i met up w/ nicole and noey..dey wer shoppin in strawberry..its funny i saw like some of the shiit i just got for schOol..they hadd cute skirts but i wasnt in the mood for shoppin lol. then chris had an open house so my bro said he'd go home by himself so i was like okay..called my ma she said i could hangout and then 2 secs lata she calls bak she had a "change of thought" or some shiit like that. she yelled at me n shiit so basically i hadda come home =( i wanted to chill w/ them and see chris fusco and ryan. so i took the train w/ mike and eddie and some grl in my bros class..dunnOo what her name is lol. i saw danny get off the train too havnt seen him in liek a yr. so then i came home and jus slept... okay summer highlights ... ~> four days in PA w/ my grlies ~> beach days w/ my grls ~> all da summa bdays of courseee and celebratin those ~> a week by the jersey shore and maryland ~> a week in fire island ...ahh am i gonna miss summer time..ok see u all 2mara =) caRii * bLoW mE oNe

[08 Sep 2004|09:50am] [ mood | awake ] wow im like in shock..my bro starts high schOol today..is that weird or what!? i feel like jus yesterday ii was the one who was all nervous and shiit walking into loyola and now its him..but i dont think hes nervous lol. andddd tomorrow is our day guys =( wow las yr is so clear..i had ice skatin be4 and then schOol and then afta me and erin chilled w/ mike and jerry..u can tell things are alot differ now..no mor ice skatin and i dun talk 2 jerry anymor.uhh i seriously think i might jus throw-up..las night i couldnt sleep and i hope it dont mean tonight to becus every yr be4 school starts i get like this..oOoo i cant wait to see people tho and see if any ones changed at all... anywhOo yesterday was my las summer night =( of coursee i hadda chill w/ my girlies because they are what makes my summa complete afta all. so dy and nicc came to my house first and then we jus walked around mv..haha these grls still dunnOo wher they are sometimes in mv..and how much do we walk around or used to ?? lol so then we called dani..she couldnt come..and then we went see if mike wanted to chill..well mike drovee by us and we jus waved haha but then we called him and he met up w/ us lata..so ther was nothn to do becus we couldnt ride upPp all the way to greenburg (sp?) where dawn lyn and the rest of ther friends were so we ended up wantin starbucks..in the great town of bronxville..ya right. im not a big fan of that place..i like mv bettaa..too many rockas for me haha so we got starbucks and walked back to mv..then we wus on gramatan and whOo do we see?..catherine..so she came w/ us toOo i needed gum so i got that..then we went to mel's and chilled outside derr for awhile..and then i came home. i <33 u grls sOo muchhh duNn forget any of the memOrieZ this summa..ahhh i cant believe its ovaa..wer def. chillin more dis yr thO!.. uhh so i have to go to loyolaa lataa in the pourin rain =( eww its so gross out lol caRii 2 * kisses ♥ * bLoW mE oNe

[06 Sep 2004|11:55pm] [ mood | bouncy ] ahh yo the days are going too fast =( it realli aint hit me yet tho that like i only got two more days to do whatevaa i want..i guess that will happen wen i gotta get up at 6 on thurs =\ anywhOo today i actualli left the house..i hadnt felt that great the las few so i was jus layin low or w/e. so my mom took my shoppin for a lil..i got the rest of noey's gift =] we gonna celebrate her bday on friday i found out jus now but we still gonna havee funn! so i like completly trashed/cleaned my room like i tore it apart and threw out sooo muchh shiit..and same thing w/ all my shiit in the attic..i really cant wait till that shithole looks nice wen iss painted and tv & couches r put up der..but i found so much stuff..like travis gave me jewelery like for secret santa las yr and i <3 it so much and i wore it xmas but then i havnt been able to find it since den..and ive been lookin for so long now ..anywhO i found it in such a weird place but atleast now i can wear it =] and then i was like readin all day cus i gotta finish the book 2nite..i got 60 pages to go so im almost done lol. then nikki reminded me about driving so i was like I WANNA GO DRIVIN or "cruisin" haha w/e u wanna call it..so my dad was like its gettin dark or w/e and i was gettin madd but den he changed his mind =]..first we went to spps..but den i actualli hit the streets again..more than wen i went w/ my mom..i went all around mv..i even hit grand and drove into my driveway perfectly and no one honked at me/ passed me ..nothn! i was soo proud of myself haha considerin i only drove like 4 times lol... uhh i feel so uhh lol..i like threw-up 2nite..(sry u really dint need to kno that lol)i was like OH SHIT i hope im not gettin that shiit i hadd like for 2 weeks wen i was REALLY sick but na i dun think so and im not tellin my mom cus u kno her..she wont lemme out den lol..anyways so tomorrow is my like last official day of summer really cus weds. i gotta go 2 loyola and try and fix my schedule and thas gonna ruin my whole day so 2maraa ima call nicc up and see if they wanna do somethin..and i gotta talk 2 michelle 2mara tOo about that job cus im hoPin i get it ight hoPe all is gOod w/ everyone els dese days... caRii * bLoW mE oNe

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